I am a Special Needs Mom

Every day is different, yet the same. I am a special needs mom. I have 5 children and I homeschool, so they are here with me all day long. My daughter, Little C, keeps things busy. She is beginning to speak some now at age 5 but is mostly communicating with sounds and gestures.

To the outside, she is a happy, loving girl. Affectionate, cheerful. To Mommy, she is demanding. She is loud and forceful. She is work. To the outside, she has come a long way. She has made so much progress. To Mommy, she needs so much more teaching. Much more therapy. So much love.

If there is one thing I have learned as a special needs mom, it is how much love you can have for your child. It is easy to love your child when they are cute and sweet. It is hard to love when they have a temper tantrum in the middle of the grocery store. During the hard times, we remind our selves that it will be over soon. It’s just a stage.

As a special needs mom, it’s just a stage, but one that lasts and lasts. We don’t know how long each stage will go for. It could be months or even years. Even though my daughter is going on 6 years old, she can be as difficult to reason with as an 18-month-old. She doesn’t communicate well enough for us to be sure how much she understands. She gets into everything. Her interests don’t match her abilities, so she gets frustrated. Her height allows her to reach things that can hurt her.

As much as I love my daughter, she makes me crazy, and that is ok. It is ok to have moments where you think you are going to loose it. I have to remind my self, I am a special needs mom, and I think that makes me a super hero.

I am a special needs mom who is holding it together, even if it’s only by a thread some days.


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